Thursday, September 17, 2009

I wish....................
Have a sweet sweeeeeeeeeeeeet night today =)
Good night out there!!

=(


Been how long since the last post of mine?wonder...
Back to blog again and it's gonna start with sad opening....wth =(
Nothing is random...nor will anything ever be...
Whether a long string of perfectly blue days that begin and end in golden dimness...
Nothing is predetermined; it is determined...or was determined...or will be determined...
No matter...it all happened at once...in less than an instant...
And time was invented because we cannot comprehend in one glance the enormous and detailed canvas that we have been given...
So we track it...in linear fashion...piece by piece...TimeS...
However...can be easily overcome; not by chasing light...
But by standing back far enough to see it all at once...
The universe is still and complete...Everything that ever was...is...
Everything that ever will be...
In all possible combinations and it's non-stop...
In the end...no matter how small it's...no matter how serious or how important it's...
the perfectly blue days that have begun and ended in golden dimness continue...immobile and accessible...
The death the pain is still come back to life...
It's is all come back to you again and again...because it's life...
And i'm trying so hard to figure it out...
I learned...i Knew...i found...
It's still the same no matter how much you put effort on it...no matter how much you try and care and trying so hard to make it well...
Things still develops constantly...It's life...It's human-being...
It cannot escape...No way out for you and me...
The crack inside our heart will never be replace...

My dear M....&D....
I had tried...i tried my best to make you see...
I tried to make it be smoother...
It does'nt work...I knew...cause...it's happen...
I am so sorry to you and i never say it out front of you because i am shamed...
I knew my wrong but you should also respect me before you want me to respect you...
I will pay my responsibility for the consequence i made....
By the way,I am still loving both of you so much as you dunno...
Sorry that i had told and said such unconscionable words to you...
Just put the blame on me...For every little things that i did...
I wish you know i love you and what i want from you all...i wish i get that from you...
Seriously i am so tried with my life...
Can't just i do the thing what i want?as long i am happy?
There might lots' ppl dislike me or hate me...but how? it's me...everyone has their own different part and just because you cant get with it or accomodate with me...
Human is that silly i guess...likes to gossip and telling about other's bads....
So what...guys...get along with your ways...continue your life your ways...
Life is just only once...as long you happy...
I admit i am reasonable when doing something out there...
But i know that is what i want...
I know i,myself can control the fate and also future...
And i believe myself in stead of believing in those blind faith like futune-telling?LOL...no ways!
And.....
I WILL STAY IN SILENCE.............PEACE~~

*Silence....
We need to find God, and He cannot be found in noise and restlessness....
God is the friend of silence.
See how nature, trees, flowers, grass grows in silence;
see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence...
We need silence to be able to touch souls...